Hmmm......
xanga.
Once in awhile I keep coming back here. Dunno why.
As for the previous entry, they FINALLY came up, few days after my bday (February). But, since then I have not heard or seen Danny SINCE. O'well. I <3 Jess, she's my bestest friend. Yes, we have the same name.
Umm....Sooo....Honors Convo last Friday made me feel maddd stupid. Not on a single list or scholarship. Ugh. It sucks because in high school I had a high GPA, was on the National Honors Society. And NO, I was not one of those to cheat my way to the top. I worked my butt off. AND, I'm working my butt off still, but do not see the results. It's freakin' ridiculous.
I am dreading the a&p lab final tomorrow. Lord please give me strength.
I wrote something awile ago, yes ME, JESS, wrote something....not that creative, but it was on my heart at the time. And it goes something like this:
no more.
time to refocus.
on my relationship with Christ.
on my studies.
it's not all about fun.
it's not all about livin large.
it's not all about findin or havin that special someone.
no matter how much i wish and pray for it.
right now it's about God.
what it is He has planned.
not what I wish for, not what I want.
but what He and He alone wants.
prayer is what i need.
prayer is what i'm doin'
prayer for strength, guidance, peace and understandin
but most importantly, patience
i gotta stop leapin
gotta stop speakin before thinkin
it's about time I became me
no more masquerade
no more hiding from the world
gotta face reality and leave the fantasy...
no more.
-me
Okies, I'm out. No one reads this anyways. ♥ | 
Reason being.....simple enough. I'm just so freakin confused and
annoyed and upset. It hurts. It's like I did NOT ask for
this AT ALL. But I'm not going to be the monkey in the
middle. No thank you. And I'm not going to be the cause of
anything either, especially a break up. It's all just sooooo
stupid. And petty. So what, I'm and hour and a half
away. I have no way of going to RI and visiting them, otherwise I
would. Would there still be a problem? I mean he wasn't
coming up here ALONE. I would never allow that. Then I can
see a major issue there. But Jess was coming with him. And
I miss her. And she can't get up here cause her car would never
last. UGHHHHH. 
And now I don't get to see the two people I consider my closest friends
from back home. Not even a day.....just a couple hours. And
I dont get to go back to Rhody till March!!!! 
